Saturday, December 10, 2011
Therapy.
Its all a blur. You and I. We're fuzzy. I see us laughing together, cuddling while watching a movie we're really not watching but its on, just like you and I. We've been at this for a long time now. But I should of been with you from the begining. Before him. I should of answered your call when him and I were at dinner together. I should of texted you back when him and I were in his car together. I should of been with you those summer nights. But I wasn't. And I missed you. So I left him. Then when I wanted you how you wanted me it was too late. You had someone. I had no one. But I wanted you. So you lied to me. You said you were single too. I knew you lied but I didn't care. So I would text you when I was drunk. You would pick me up, you were rolling.We would get ours. A couple nights like that. Then comunictation stopped. I would see you at a couple parties. We would act as if nothing happened between us. Then we slowly began remebering each other but I never forgot you. Now you're single. I'm single.And I think its time for an US. Because I don't want anymore of those quick nights, I want you all the time.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
My Definition of BAD BITCH
A woman who has ambition, goals, plans, and strives for a higher education. She always gets it done no matter what it is. She thinks like a man but is as beautiful as a woman.
A Woman's Worth
As a growing woman, I've
figured out that I decide my worth to a man by my actions. I've been that girl
that constantly calls and texts the same guy for his attention, yet there was
many unanswered calls and texts. I've also been that girl that receives a lot
of calls and texts that I don't answer. The more I don't answer them the more
that guy continues to text or call me until they realize I'm not into them,
then they stop. That’s how we as woman work as well, but we don’t come to that
realization that he just might not want you because if we do not receive the
attention of the male we want, we think we will by bugging the shit out of
them. WRONG. Wrong, that doesn't work...trust me I laugh at myself for saying
this but I've tried that. The best way to let a man know you are worth more
than a late night drunk text is by showing him your AMBITION as a woman. Men
love a hard working girl that receives her own pay checks, a girl who places
her education before anything, or a girl with plans and aspirations so when he
asks you "what do you want to do with your life?" you have an answer
that blows him away no BJ.
If you're really
looking to have a relationship with him, drop all the other guys. If he has the
same intentions with you, he'll drop all of the other girls as well. If he
doesn't, he's not serious, cut him off.
There are many guys
who aren't serious and those are the ones you have to watch out for. If he's
going out constantly, if girls are always leaving him "<3" on his
FB wall, if he's always talking to different girls, chances are you should
probably quit him. "But he's so cute, and he has "swag" and all
these other girls want him. There must be a reason?" That reason is they
only see the material, just because he has a fresh pair of Retros, a snapback,
and brand name shit don't mean shit! If you still decide to chase him after you
have witness his games, you're going to get hurt because you're letting your
self get hurt. You're letting him place you on his "I'll hit her up when
I'm bored list." Instead delete his number, don't let the memories you
once had stop you from moving on, you're worth much more and its time you start
proving it.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
Bad Judgment Part 2
I look at my watch its 11:00 p.m, he's buzzzing and I'm sober and still vulnerable. As I sit passenger seat of his car. I'm avoiding questioning myself because I myself know this is not who I am. I am not a booty call, at least I told myself I wasn't before but for his attention I'm playing myself stupid.
I reach to turn up the radio in order for the music to rid my thoughts, he grabs my hand. The touch of his thumb against mine is reassuring me we're more than late night calls and drunk texts.
Finally we arrive to his place. We go straight to his bedroom, he turns the T.V on, lays down on his bed and reaches for me to lay with him, I take the offer. Laying next to him is temptation. He starts kissing me ad I kiss back. He starts undressing me and I undress back. Suddenly we are bare naked, my legs are wrapped around his back and I'm facing his chest. He kisses me in every right spot. He picks me up, and now he's standing up. After we do it on the dresser because good sex never ends where it started. I forget about the world, and think about my pleasure as I hear his breathing on my neck. After what feels like an hour both of us become weak and slowly we let each other go. He starts putting his briefs back on and I look around to see where he threw my clothes. I grab my panties, bra and I slip them on. I see my shirt on top of something, I grab it to uncover a picture of him and her, her? who's she? why didn't he tell me about she?I stare into the picture but catch myself and I act as if I didn't notice any picture, any girl, any him and her.
I go up to him and begin to kiss his neck and chest, he slowly pushes me away trying to be gentle,he walks to his mirror to check if he has any marks and ask "You ready to go home?" and just like that I became the other one. The one I told myself I would never become. I'm playing his fool and I don't plan on turning down the role just yet.
I button my jeans up, slip on my sneakers, touch up my lipgloss, grab my purse and we leave.
I left something behind though...my heart.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Perfect Eye Brows
Steps to creating nice, clean, eyebrows
1. Tweeze, or professionally have you eyebrows waxed or threaded. I prefer wax.
2. Brush your eyebrows and untangle all the hairs with he eyebrow brush, the soft side.
3. Have a brown color eyeshadow or a color that matches the color of you eyebrows.
4. Take the eyeliner brush, dip it in the eyeshadow and start filling in your eyebrows.
5. Use the edge of the brush to outline the lines of your eyebrows.
6. Once all filled in re-brush your eyebrows.
7. You're all done, look at your master pieces.
Food and Money Challenge
Starting today I'm going to record everything I buy and everything I eat on my blog. I wanna do this because I wanna see how much money I spend stupidly and how much food I eat and what kind of food, unhealthy or healthy because I'm trying to cut back on spending and on eating. Hopefully I keep up with this.
The Party After the After Party
I think I'm fucken gone, trollin on this floor, messin up your carpet, I'll get on it after 4, more sessions of this drug on the floor, shoulda fucked you raw but I fucken pulled.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Must Haves for School
Toms shoes
$54 - toms.com
$54 - toms.com
Nixon watch
$100 - tillys.com
$100 - tillys.com
Metal ring
$90 - maxandchloe.com
$90 - maxandchloe.com
Ray-Ban wayfarer sunglasses
$145 - ray-ban.com
$145 - ray-ban.com
MAC 'Viva Glam VII' Lipglass One Size
$15 - nordstrom.com
$15 - nordstrom.com
Burberry - Burberry Eau De Parfum Spray 50ml/1.7oz
$58 - yesstyle.com
$58 - yesstyle.com
Baja Bags Girls Patchwork Backpack at Zumiez : PDP
$22 - zumiez.com
$22 - zumiez.com
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